Now that I’ve outgrown the monster under my bed and the boogie man in my closet, I have scarier things to worry about - rejection from other Moms!
I have a new member meet-up with a local Moms group first thing tomorrow morning. I’m so nervous and can’t stop thinking about all the ‘what ifs’. I worried that they’ll hate me, think my kids are wild animals, and/or I’ll dislike them and want to bail. I guess I have nothing to lose but I just hate feeling rejected.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Down & Out
Now I remember why I disliked school so much as a kid.
Yesterday was my huge lab practicum which I’ve been preparing for all week. The professor gave us little hints as to what we should focus on while studying and made a few promises to ease our minds. I had a stress induced stomach ache all day which got worse as the hours slipped by and the practicum got closer. I studied my heart out. When I felt sure I couldn’t retain any more information, I left the house and headed to school. When I got there I realized I was in trouble as I witnessed the professor setting up things he had promised we wouldn’t have to worry about. Panic set in. I began to shake and feel the fire in my cheeks. I took a few deep breaths before rising from my seat to begin the exam. I took one look in the microscope before realizing that I was in serious trouble. Shit. Each microscope displayed a different slide with different questions but all the same frustration. We were warned not to touch the stage or magnification as they were already set to the right adjustments for us. With 17 adults in the room, you’d think simple directions would be followed. They weren’t. As I walked from scope to scope I realized the “pictures” were changing. Someone had changed the magnification and moved the stage. What the hell?? As if I needed something else to work against me! I was so frustrated I walked out. I sat in the hall to “gather” myself. Instead, I broke down and cried. Realizing that crying was not going to award me the grade I hoped for, I went back inside to put ink on my paper. Making sure there weren’t any empty holes, I passed in my exam.
I definitely failed. From what I gathered, everyone else in the class didn’t do well either but that doesn’t make my situation any better. I have a written test in this class on Monday. I can’t afford to do poorly on that one but we don’t know what will be on it so the odds are against me. I just want to be done - degree or no degree.
Yesterday was my huge lab practicum which I’ve been preparing for all week. The professor gave us little hints as to what we should focus on while studying and made a few promises to ease our minds. I had a stress induced stomach ache all day which got worse as the hours slipped by and the practicum got closer. I studied my heart out. When I felt sure I couldn’t retain any more information, I left the house and headed to school. When I got there I realized I was in trouble as I witnessed the professor setting up things he had promised we wouldn’t have to worry about. Panic set in. I began to shake and feel the fire in my cheeks. I took a few deep breaths before rising from my seat to begin the exam. I took one look in the microscope before realizing that I was in serious trouble. Shit. Each microscope displayed a different slide with different questions but all the same frustration. We were warned not to touch the stage or magnification as they were already set to the right adjustments for us. With 17 adults in the room, you’d think simple directions would be followed. They weren’t. As I walked from scope to scope I realized the “pictures” were changing. Someone had changed the magnification and moved the stage. What the hell?? As if I needed something else to work against me! I was so frustrated I walked out. I sat in the hall to “gather” myself. Instead, I broke down and cried. Realizing that crying was not going to award me the grade I hoped for, I went back inside to put ink on my paper. Making sure there weren’t any empty holes, I passed in my exam.
I definitely failed. From what I gathered, everyone else in the class didn’t do well either but that doesn’t make my situation any better. I have a written test in this class on Monday. I can’t afford to do poorly on that one but we don’t know what will be on it so the odds are against me. I just want to be done - degree or no degree.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Terrible Tuesdays
I hate Tuesdays with a passion. Tuesdays are the only day that Chris has to go to the office but if anything is going to go wrong around here - it always happens on a Tuesday!
I’m so frustrated because I have a test tonight and haven’t had time to study, the kids have been pushing my buttons all day (especially Jacob with his attitude), and the one time I talked to Chris today - he makes me angry. What the hell?! On top of all this, my house looks like a cyclone went through it. I hate mess and clutter…it makes me want to crawl out of my skin!
I give up! Something needs to change around here - and fast!
I’m so frustrated because I have a test tonight and haven’t had time to study, the kids have been pushing my buttons all day (especially Jacob with his attitude), and the one time I talked to Chris today - he makes me angry. What the hell?! On top of all this, my house looks like a cyclone went through it. I hate mess and clutter…it makes me want to crawl out of my skin!
I give up! Something needs to change around here - and fast!
Monday, March 17, 2008
24hrs of travel on the wall....
We survived!
We left on Thursday March 6th after feeding and bathing the kids and putting them in their pjs. We didn’t tell them where we were going in hopes of eliminating the dreaded cries of ”are we there yet”. Well that didn’t work to our advantage because we ended up with “where are we going?” and “are we there yet?”. Once we hit New York, Jake began to panic so I let him know that we were headed south to visit family and we’d be there in “x” hours. Thankfully, he didn’t ask again. Chris drove the majority of the trip with the exception of the two short times I drove to let him rest. I suck at driving long distances - poor hubster. I think he drove a total of 19hrs. He was so exhausted when we got to our destination that he just passed out. Here’s what our week looked like in the sunshiny state of Florida:
Saturday - We visited with my aunt, uncle, and two cousins and it was so windy I felt like Olivia might blow away if I didn’t keep a firm grasp on her. The weather was okay when the wind died down (68* I think). We watched Bret’s baseball game and went looking at model homes in the area.
Sunday - We continued to look at some houses before meeting back up with my family for dinner and a swim.
Monday - We drove 1 1/2 hours north to visit my grandparents. The kids were furious with us for putting them back in the car. The visit was ok for the most part except that my grandparents don’t really have the patience for small children anymore. I felt bad for them since there really wasn’t much for them to do but get into things and they kept getting scolded by one person or another. After dinner we left to head back south.
Tuesday - We went to spring training (another 1 1/2 drive). Jake was so surprised and happy to be there!
Wednesday - We went to visit our friends John and Anna (yet another 1 1/2 drive). We spent the day with them then went to dinner where Jake showed off his new skill of multiplication and division that we taught him in the car.
Thursday - HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Jake!!!! We had a nice day with him then headed to the beach to watch the sunset. When we got there we parked in Handicap parking as we do when we have Jake since he can’t walk long distances (or at all without his braces on). Someone must have watched us get everything out of the car and carry the kids onto the beach because when we returned to the car someone had written “BULL SHIT” on our window in permanent marker. Nice. I was almost in tears thinking that someone could be so ignorant and hurtful and not to mention ballsy enough to deface someone else’s property like that.
Friday - time to get back in the car and endure the long car ride home! 24 hrs of travel on the wall, 24hrs of travel, take one down, pass it around….23hrs of travel on the wall. On a side note - Madison made it the whole week (including travel) without a single accident!
We got home late Saturday night and have been trying to get back into a tolerable routine. No such luck yet - but we’re certainly working on it.
Here’s some good quotes from our trip:
Me: “Please take Madison to the bathroom”
Chris: ” How am I suppose to do that - I can’t go into the girls room!!”
Jacob: “can we go to Pittsburgh?”
Madison: “No, I don’t want a pittsburger - I want chicken tenders!”
Jacob to Chris “Well dad, I’d like to get there in a timely fashion.”
Jacob “Hey Mom, Look - another Walgreens…they’re taking over the world”
There were many more but I’m pooped
We left on Thursday March 6th after feeding and bathing the kids and putting them in their pjs. We didn’t tell them where we were going in hopes of eliminating the dreaded cries of ”are we there yet”. Well that didn’t work to our advantage because we ended up with “where are we going?” and “are we there yet?”. Once we hit New York, Jake began to panic so I let him know that we were headed south to visit family and we’d be there in “x” hours. Thankfully, he didn’t ask again. Chris drove the majority of the trip with the exception of the two short times I drove to let him rest. I suck at driving long distances - poor hubster. I think he drove a total of 19hrs. He was so exhausted when we got to our destination that he just passed out. Here’s what our week looked like in the sunshiny state of Florida:
Saturday - We visited with my aunt, uncle, and two cousins and it was so windy I felt like Olivia might blow away if I didn’t keep a firm grasp on her. The weather was okay when the wind died down (68* I think). We watched Bret’s baseball game and went looking at model homes in the area.
Sunday - We continued to look at some houses before meeting back up with my family for dinner and a swim.
Monday - We drove 1 1/2 hours north to visit my grandparents. The kids were furious with us for putting them back in the car. The visit was ok for the most part except that my grandparents don’t really have the patience for small children anymore. I felt bad for them since there really wasn’t much for them to do but get into things and they kept getting scolded by one person or another. After dinner we left to head back south.
Tuesday - We went to spring training (another 1 1/2 drive). Jake was so surprised and happy to be there!
Wednesday - We went to visit our friends John and Anna (yet another 1 1/2 drive). We spent the day with them then went to dinner where Jake showed off his new skill of multiplication and division that we taught him in the car.
Thursday - HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Jake!!!! We had a nice day with him then headed to the beach to watch the sunset. When we got there we parked in Handicap parking as we do when we have Jake since he can’t walk long distances (or at all without his braces on). Someone must have watched us get everything out of the car and carry the kids onto the beach because when we returned to the car someone had written “BULL SHIT” on our window in permanent marker. Nice. I was almost in tears thinking that someone could be so ignorant and hurtful and not to mention ballsy enough to deface someone else’s property like that.
Friday - time to get back in the car and endure the long car ride home! 24 hrs of travel on the wall, 24hrs of travel, take one down, pass it around….23hrs of travel on the wall. On a side note - Madison made it the whole week (including travel) without a single accident!
We got home late Saturday night and have been trying to get back into a tolerable routine. No such luck yet - but we’re certainly working on it.
Here’s some good quotes from our trip:
Me: “Please take Madison to the bathroom”
Chris: ” How am I suppose to do that - I can’t go into the girls room!!”
Jacob: “can we go to Pittsburgh?”
Madison: “No, I don’t want a pittsburger - I want chicken tenders!”
Jacob to Chris “Well dad, I’d like to get there in a timely fashion.”
Jacob “Hey Mom, Look - another Walgreens…they’re taking over the world”
There were many more but I’m pooped
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
I Must Have Lost My Mind...
We have decided to take the kids on a road trip to Florida. 24+ hours in the car with three kids and the hubster…I have to be crazy.
We’ll be gone for Jake’s 6th birthday so we’re going to surprise him with spring training tickets. We’re really starting a trend here because last year we went to Disney for his 5th birthday and this year we’ll be going back down. I sure hope this doesn’t become expected.
We’ll be gone for Jake’s 6th birthday so we’re going to surprise him with spring training tickets. We’re really starting a trend here because last year we went to Disney for his 5th birthday and this year we’ll be going back down. I sure hope this doesn’t become expected.
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